Day 4: PN23
Today I said NO to…
Having a vendor push out a service call into next week when the service should’ve been completed in November. Good news is the work is to be completed tomorrow.
Feeling shutdown from overwhelm and emotion; I took care of what needed to be handled to maintain my standing at one of my jobs, and I paid a bill that has stressed me for weeks. Oh, and I was also able to reframe my attitude towards that recurring bill based on my personal past. Bottom Line: I’ll figure it out. Everything will be alright. I did then, I will again.
Ignoring my soul’s words. Today proved to be one of those days when bunches of “coins dropped”, and I became more aware of emotional realities I’ve been shunning. It’s never easy to realize who someone really is when you just didn’t want to accept their actions. Today I took more steps to honest acceptance.
Allowing my laundry pile to collect dust. Three loads today!
Doing dishes. Hey, this blog can’t always be about me being perfect. Ha!
I’m amazed at how much my self-awareness is blossoming as I say NO to things. The NOs make way for YESs as well as more silence, and I’m really thankful for that. This head cold is fading a little bit at a time. Last night I woke myself coughing for what felt like 5 minutes. I couldn’t catch my breath, so I kept coughing until I could. It was a lot, but I trusted my body to do what it knows to do. This morning my lungs were clearer than they have been in a long time—and more sadness was gone. A long time ago, a friend told me that according to Oriental Medicine tradition, major emotions are held in our major organs. The lungs hold sadness, and I can very much feel a shift. It’s not just that I took NyQuil (TM); it’s that as I reclaim my mental health via making myself a priority, I am also reclaiming peace—no matter how gradually.
Another thing that I want to give voice to is that I said NO to a pile of mail last night, meaning NO MORE PILE. I forgot to mention it in yesterday’s post, so I’d like to mention it now. For weeks (ok years), I’ve been wanting to organize my personal papers in a binder, but I’ve avoided it for the reasons Project NO was born. I’ve struggled with finding a system that works for me since I can remember (we’re talking decades), and I’ve found one. As I opened the mail and used the system as I’d imagined it, I discovered that this is my best system for my personal papers. I’m calling it The Binder, and I intend to write an ebook detailing my process. The reason I want to mention it here is because by saying NO to the pile of mail, I said YES to more self-control and therefore less anxiety. It’s nice to grow daily in my sense of self and personal peace. I’m liking this.
Until tomorrow…