Day 4: PN23

Today I said NO to…

  • Having a vendor push out a service call into next week when the service should’ve been completed in November. Good news is the work is to be completed tomorrow.

  • Feeling shutdown from overwhelm and emotion; I took care of what needed to be handled to maintain my standing at one of my jobs, and I paid a bill that has stressed me for weeks. Oh, and I was also able to reframe my attitude towards that recurring bill based on my personal past. Bottom Line: I’ll figure it out. Everything will be alright. I did then, I will again.

  • Ignoring my soul’s words. Today proved to be one of those days when bunches of “coins dropped”, and I became more aware of emotional realities I’ve been shunning. It’s never easy to realize who someone really is when you just didn’t want to accept their actions. Today I took more steps to honest acceptance.

  • Allowing my laundry pile to collect dust. Three loads today!

  • Doing dishes. Hey, this blog can’t always be about me being perfect. Ha!

I’m amazed at how much my self-awareness is blossoming as I say NO to things. The NOs make way for YESs as well as more silence, and I’m really thankful for that. This head cold is fading a little bit at a time. Last night I woke myself coughing for what felt like 5 minutes. I couldn’t catch my breath, so I kept coughing until I could. It was a lot, but I trusted my body to do what it knows to do. This morning my lungs were clearer than they have been in a long time—and more sadness was gone. A long time ago, a friend told me that according to Oriental Medicine tradition, major emotions are held in our major organs. The lungs hold sadness, and I can very much feel a shift. It’s not just that I took NyQuil (TM); it’s that as I reclaim my mental health via making myself a priority, I am also reclaiming peace—no matter how gradually.

Another thing that I want to give voice to is that I said NO to a pile of mail last night, meaning NO MORE PILE. I forgot to mention it in yesterday’s post, so I’d like to mention it now. For weeks (ok years), I’ve been wanting to organize my personal papers in a binder, but I’ve avoided it for the reasons Project NO was born. I’ve struggled with finding a system that works for me since I can remember (we’re talking decades), and I’ve found one. As I opened the mail and used the system as I’d imagined it, I discovered that this is my best system for my personal papers. I’m calling it The Binder, and I intend to write an ebook detailing my process. The reason I want to mention it here is because by saying NO to the pile of mail, I said YES to more self-control and therefore less anxiety. It’s nice to grow daily in my sense of self and personal peace. I’m liking this.

Until tomorrow…

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